My Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I hate it! I hate it!! I want him so hard. Why does he have to be gone??

K, let me start this one out by saying that my cousin is a whore. No, let me say it different: he's a whore slut! So, I went over to his house so I could talk to my friend that was watching a movie there, and it turns out that her boyfriend was there too. He had to go, and so I was left to watch the movie ...and, unfortunately, my cousin and my friend. It was sick. He's sick. He has this strange attachment to girls that he thinks is way cool and so fun, but in reality, it's sickening to the people who are not taking part in it: meaning me. I, man, I dunno, I am so disgusted with him. He's such a cool kid when he's not around other girls, but he just changes and tries to be something he's not. Not fun at all. I tried to leave, but neither of them wanted me to go. So, I was left to sit there and watch their grosser than gross physical attachment to each other -when they're both dedicated to others and they're both too young, which is just sick.

I just don't know how to explain how I feel right now. I feel ...sick, as in nauseated, but not quite nauseated... and then after all this, I keep on thinking of mine. My head aches, my heart aches. I wonder why he's not here and why I can't be with him, and there's this ...longing...

I feel broken. Broken in two. I want to be with him but he's not here. Gone. Alone. Broken. There's an empty space inside of me that burns, burns with jealosy, love, fear, alone, cold, black. And it burns. Deep in my heart. I want him so hard. But, at present:

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah,-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's screwed up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...