dedicated to a friend...

"...have you ever had your heart ripped out by someone you've loved for forever when they tell you they hate your guts?"
It gets ripped out every time I'm with you... "...Oh, you have no idea..."

"...do you ever get that horrid feeling when you want to cry and the tears are there but they just don't fall, and you feel like that if only they fell the pain would go away?"
...Like right now?? "All the time..."


My Story:

Football game on a Saturday night
Catch glimpses of you just beyond my sight
I hear of friends nearby as friends pass by
I still don't know if this is right

Questions asked, and words get passed
Because of my tendency to tell the truth
My honesty will be the death of me
If I say anything else to you

Now walking aimlessly staring into space
With the saddest look upon your face
Reminiscing all those fun-stuffed days you had
With the girl that happened to fill my place

Questions asked, and words get passed
Because of my tendency to tell the truth
My honesty will be the death of me
If I say anything else to you


I made him cry. I made me cry. I cried my heart out for both of them. He asked me why she had left him, and I thought he deserved to know the truth- the whole truth for once. So I told him ...and he cried. He wondered how and why the heck he had been so ignorant; he wished someone would have told him so that he would have known before it was too late. But- le fin- it's finished.

I tried to comfort him; I tried so hard that he got mad at my efforts- "Lisa, just leave me alone..." We sat in silence the rest of the night, him holding his head in his hands; me trying to refrain myself from putting my arms around him and bawling- to just be able to let loose everything that's been trapped inside me for the past 7 months and 5 days since my first and last breakup, and having to see it happen to someone else: the rejection, the hate, the remorse, the lonliness, the anger, the sorrow, the grief, the tears, the pain, the hurt (did I forget anything else?), the regret... The friendship I had had with my old boy once is gone- I didn't want the same thing to happen to these two totally awesome people; neither one deserved what was happening, at all.

Getting ready to leave, I hugged him and said, "I love you, but I just don't wan-" "I'll see you around." And just like that I was cut off and left standing alone in the dark in front of the school, watching him drag himself away, one foot in front of the other, while I stood there and cried at what I had just done. Accidental revenge. "I love you". Even from just friends and family, those three words sting like death after breakups. I should know- I've gone through it.

From him to her:

Here I am on

The phone again, and

Awkward silence is

On the other end

I used to know the sound

Of a smile in your voice

But right now (right now)

All I feel (All I feel)

Is the pain of the fighting

Starting up again

.

All the things we talk about

You know they stay on my mind

On my mind

All the things we laugh about

They'll bring us through it every time

After time after time

.

Don't say a word

I know you feel the same

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away

I know you wanna stay

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

.

Some say that

Time changes

Best friends can

Become strangers

But I don't want that

No, not for you

If you just stay with me, we can make it through

.

So here we are again

The same old argument

And now I'm wonderin'

If things'll ever change, yeah

When will you laugh again?

Laugh like you did back when

We'd make noise til 3 AM and the neighbors would complain

.

All the things we talk about

You know they stay on my mind

On my mind

All the things we laugh about

They'll bring us through it every time

After time after time

.

Don't say a word

I know you feel the same

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away

I know you wanna stay

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

.

I'm fallin'

I'm fallin'

I'm fallin' down

I'm fallin'

I'm fallin'

I'm fallin' down

Down

Down

Down

.

Don't say a word

I know you feel the same

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away

I know you wanna stay

If you'll just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

.

Don't say a word (Please don't leave)

I know you feel the same

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Please don't walk away (Please don't leave)

I know you wanna stay

Just give me a sign

Say anything, say anything

Say Anything- Good Charlotte